This is actually a good post..

Well since my last blog (June 11th)

-I now work at Claire's in the Galleria.
-I have a huge dent on the back of my car.
-I am now a Jeff State College Student.
-I have lost 21ish pounds.
-I have learned to grow up when it comes to drama.
-I have a new puppy, his name is Harley Monroe.
**Catahoula Leopard/Chow mix.
-I have a dept card. (haha)
-I have black hair with blondeish bangs.
-I have a Samsung Eternity.
-I now have no speakers to my computer
because Harley ate the cord.

blah blah blah.

I am very happy with my life.

rhajdgvjdhagja VENT VENT VENT

i only write in this thing when i need to vent.
well here i goooo....


Jamie and Daniel broke up.
and as i knew what was gonna happen...


Jamie became annoying.


Don't get me wrong at all
i love her to death, and she
is my all time best friend.




but listen to this shit,
we went bathingsuit showing
today because Tina is taking us
to the beach and i pick out
this really cuute one piece and
i show it to jamie and she says
and your not going to wear nothing
over that? i know i have big legs
but omg stfu, she sits here and takes
myspace pictures with no pants on or
some panties on. seriously? what makes
you think half of myspace wants to see
that?

i have no confedince because of her.

there is so much more
about her that i can go
on about.



but in other news.
im doing a diet thing
called inch by inch
and i started it last
thursday and i went
in to way today and
i lost 5 pounds <3.



im outta high school,
and i miss it already.

i start jeff state in augest.
nerves as fuck. =//


time to bathe.

mmmm.

I am a very annoyed person.
thought i would write that one
down. I HATE IT when people
expect you to do things for them
and they dont do anything for you.


On the good side. i have like 4 and a half months of high school
left. I have the best of friends even though they may be bipolar.
My family means EVERYTHING to me. God is the most important
thing in my life. I really do need to act like it more. If it wasnt for
him i wouldnt have great things in my life like i do now.

My friendship with Jamie is going down the drain.
I am trying to make new friends because i do need
to have more than 2.

Here are some random pet peeves.

**when guys want sexual picturess
**when people talk when you are talking
**Haveing no money or gas.
**Being talked to like your stupid
**Being told what to do by people
who think they are over you...
**Abortion
**KNOW IT ALLS
**blah blah blah


pointless.

DEPRESSION !!

omgee.
i have like the HUGEST crush
on a guy that had no idea who
i am...Max Lerner. From TWO-
A-DAYS. omg. its like bad too.
AHHHHH....He is amazing <3





im a such a freakin loser.
i mean its not because he
was on two-a-days its because
he is GORGEOUS. OMG im
sooo dumb.




ahhh...=[

ANDDD !!

UGHHHH...i really wanna be Kelsey Osley's friend
for some reason. and its like some days shell talk
to me and be cool and then some days shell talk
to me like im satan.

But i have NO IDEA why i wanna be her friend
so bad. This is like 3rd grade shit. dumb dumb
DUMB !!


oh well.
shit happens.






...pauls fault

This post isn't so bad....

Lately (since my last post) its been quite good.

WeekEnd:
Friday-Woke up at like 5:45 went and ate
breakfast with alex before she went to school.
SCHOOL.
Got paid..then later on friday night Alex, Destinee,
Jackie, Lovell, and I went to Wings...then to other
random places. Got home at like ehhhh 11:00.

Saturday-Woke up at like 8:30 had to go to work
at 10:00. Got off at 6:30. Came home. My daddy
gave me a foot rub cause my right foot hurt badly.
Which is odd because he is usually not nice haha.

but my plans for today is going to church.
EATING A WINGS :) (again) going to see
my loveing grandma (nan) then going to
brookwood mall.

Theres really nothing to say when im not in
a sad or pissed mood. haha. but the band
banquet is in March and i really doubt ima
have a date...CAUSE IM A LOSERR =[

and im not going to prom.
prom is GAYYYYY. =]

but this is getting to lame.

peace.

ohmygee.

everything was fine today until i went to damn
DANCE at teridonna...ughhh, im so self centered
about dance now. =[


andddd ever since Jessica Colbert and
Ethan Marcus started danceing there
i suck freakin butt. It REALLY depresses
me. I use to be soo good..now im not. So
what if im flexable. I WAANNA DANCE.
and i cant. and i HATE IT. words cant
describe how sucky i feel....damn it.

Something really hurt me today i mean
it brought tears to my eyes. my mom
said that she thinks my daddy loves money
more than her...

i dont think so. i wanna ask him but idk
how that will turn out. sometimes i really
do feel my family is falling apart...my gosh
im tearing up now. But i know my daddy
is sooo far from that way. he just doesnt show
emotion. ;( and i wish he did sometimes.


my mommy does soo fucking much for everyone
but people give her crap. i know im guilty of it
but when shes in trouble she cant tell anyone
because they will talk shit to her about how she
messed up excepecially her sisters. ;{ i love my mommy.


damn im just letting everything out on here.
i hope all this crap makes since. how knows.


i tryed saying sorry to matt shewmake for just
ditching him...he was soo sweet. but who the crap
knowssss.


im done.
the end.